I'm so....

ok so i just started college college the actual real thing etc and my best firend and i went to different schools, at least an hour away from each other, we went dancing the first week of school, but after that we havent even really spoken just because we are so damn busy etc etc, so i call her today becasue she called me, and im like im at work, on my break andshe was like yeah i should be doing homework so she said to call her after work, so i forget and called her now and we're talking and my phone fucks up and hangs up, i try calling her back, three times which is allowed because we have known each othr for years and the snob doesn't pick up and i know her, I KNOW HER and she does that shit to boys and other stupid non imoprtant people but NOt to me NOT TO ME so wtf right i mean seriously four weeks and she starts being able to ditch me on the phone, i apologized for forgeting to call her but i do have like forty things due tomorrow and before the phone hung up she had been talking about how shhewas fucking around, so at least i have shit to do right and for the record she never called me either and seriously i dont know whether to be mad or sad because if she can do that so easily after only a few weeks then we were never that good of friends to begin with and i seriously considered her my best and only friend and i am a picky bitch with ppl so i dont choose just anybody and what the hell? seriouslyt iot may seem like i am overreacting but if you knew us then you would know that ther would be no way inhell that she would seriously fucknig not pick up for me unless she was in class a meeting or at work, and she was doing niether of the above and she has never never done that before so this is serious i feel so used and discarded... and even wit my new friend she is possibly just using me for my car, and we have a lot in common so it might be ok but i dont trust ppl and you seriosly goddamn wonder why right when my BEST friend in the world just fucking refused to pick up the phone for me?who the hell does se think shes speaking to?

THX 1138, the technologic jungle...

Seriously i think our world will someday soon end up looking like george lucas' THX 1138 dont get me wrong i absolutely adore science and technology and think it may actually be the one thing our species has to show for itself , with the exception of the arts which are products of our imagination which we were given for that purpose so not really an accomplishment of our own...in a sense...
but really the one neccesary thing we lack when it comes to science is the ability to stop to stop and say this is far enough, to stop and say lets pause before we do this and think about the repercussions, maybe create the solutions to the problems before they even arrive so that they dont get out of control

i am glad that i was born in this time, a little, because i will die before (i think and i hope) i seee us completely rape and ravage our own habitat like we've done to so many others, and yes i am a hypocrite because hell yeah i drive a car and truthfully i love driving it calms me down (when its not rush hour) but i mean seriously i live in suburbia, usa and there is no way that i would be able to bike to school unless i woke up at 2am and left then also, i wouldnt be able to make it back in time for work, its truelly pitiful that i think this way and yet i do nothing to stop it but seriously most of the stuff truthfully i dont want to change , i adore driving, and im an american go i adore ccreating a mega buildup of trash (not true but i do waste) however in this day and age without the mass amount of cash to by that "Green"car (i bet ya it shouldnt cost that much its just the beurocratic bs of the system that lets the rich ( gas and drug co.) get richer and poor get poorer) and i just wish i could but if it were a free change i would do it, but then again that in itself is bad too no because i cant fork out a little cash to save the world, none of us can? but then back to my original argument, money is the root of everything in this day and age so who wants to drop money on something that you wouldnt be able to see and real change, really, anyone, isnt that why diets always fail, someone does really well, then looks at the scale and doesnt see an immediate change so they binge eat until they feel fat guilt once again.....
oh well the world is perfect, its just us that create all the little (and big) imperfections....